“And pause here!”
This cue came out frequently in the yoga classes I taught. At first, it was a tool to keep my students from wriggling out of poses before discovering what was happening in their bodies, and heads. Jump out too soon, and miss it – the innate wisdom, honesty, discomfort, and strength – that can only be found if you’re willing to stay the hell put. For five more breaths. I also cued ‘and pause here’ to give me time to really observe what was happening in the room, and guide the class based on that vs. what I had originally planned. Because life rarely goes as planned.
But why limit this process to a 71″ X 26″ mat on a creaky studio floor? I’m embarrassed to say that after closing Ohms I typically raced off to the nearest coffee shop whilst scrolling through texts/email/FB garbage without noticing a single thing unfolding in front of me. Cute pup zigzagging alongside his doting two-legged pal down the trail? Missed it. Friendly barista with the cool tattoo and patience of a Zen master? Missed his smile and “what can I getcha?” too. So this blog is an attempt to rectify my frenzied state. A platform to record what I notice. The posts you read here – should you choose to give me a precious moment of your valuable time – are collection of what I see, taste, smell, savor and gape at when I pause long enough to get it down in writing.
And pause here. I’ve learned a lot by pausing. Years of chasing perfection, ignoring my soul, running, cycling, and aerobicizing my way into a perpetually exhausted heap eventually took me to my knees. And thank God it did. The warm yoga studio I finally discovered wrapped me up in a much-needed midlife hug and led me toward a new, powerful way of being. Since moving to the east coast five years ago I’ve been on a fabulous, self-loving path with lots of stumbles in handstand along the way. Falling and getting back up on a regular basis is now part of my daily practice – both on the mat and off.
So feel free to pause, read, share, and draw your own inspiration from this blog.
Bachelor of Arts in Journalism from Washington State University – graduated cum laude
- RYT 200-hour Hatha/Vinyasa, Frog Lotus International, North Adams, MA, 2012
- Baptiste Level One Teacher Training, Menla Mountain Catskills, NY, 2013
- Baptiste Art of Assisting, Sid Yoga Center, Towson, MD, 2013
- Baptiste Level Two Teacher Training, Sedona, AZ, 2014
Additionally, trained with and been influenced by the teachings of:
- Claire Este-McDonald & Gregor Singleton at Baptiste Studios Boston/Cambridge
- Dana Flynn at Laughing Lotus Center NYC
- Naime Jezzeny at Dig Yoga Lambertville, NJ
- Dharma Mittra at Dharma Mittra Center NYC
- Workshops with Desiree Rumbaugh, Sianna Sherman, and Janet Stone